hendrix190

hendrix190 @ 2005-03-16T11:07:00

2005-03-16T17:18:06Z

i havent wrote in this thing in probably like 4 months are so, but im really bored right now, cause im sittin in the student center waitin on my next class. i havent worked out in like 3 months, i need to start doing that again, but i have to pay like 300 bucks for the gym member ship. although my aunt found my unclaimed check from when i worked at outback. its worth like 400 bucks, and im going through all kinda shit to get it. today im gettin something notarized, which will probably cost like 20 bucks, theres some girl thats checking me out right now, from across the room, she has a limp in her walking, hehe , funny. she might just be my true love, i dunno yet. haha im thinking about putting a band together, i havent really played guitar seriously in like a year or so, i left all my guitars and amps and processors, at my friends house. but the other night i got together with thick and he sang a song that we wrote and it was fun, so

gettin huge again.

2004-09-26T22:46:23Z

i finally started working out again, after like 4 months of not doing anything, ive pretty much shriveled about half way down to my orginal size. i was bench pressing 225 like 4 times now im bench pressing 185 like 4 times. so hopefully ill regain my size and strength quickly. :)

hendrix190 @ 2004-09-02T09:17:00

2004-09-02T15:26:48Z

hey i havent written in this thing in a long time.im in school again, i have only 3 classes though, history, english and pysch. i met one of my online friends recently (tiffany). shes pretty cool, we are supposed to do somethin today. there is a really hot girl in my history class that stares at me when i walk by, i hope she likes me, cause she is soooo cute. yea im goin back to sleep now, bye

hendrix190 @ 2004-08-03T13:44:00

2004-08-03T18:54:44Z

last night me and some friends went to see the village it was pretty good. then today. i got online to pay my tution.

hendrix190 @ 2004-07-28T12:07:00

2004-07-28T18:13:24Z

i just got done washing my car, its hot as a hell out side.........

finals

2004-07-15T14:11:27Z

im sittin over here at school waiting to take my next final exam. i just took the biology one and i think i fail which sucks cuase i didnt have to great of a grade in that class in the first place. next is spanish, im doing pretty good in that class. i hope i get to go fishin this weekend , i havent been in a while. byron wants me to get drunk with him and go to hooters or something. so i might do that. i havent seen many of the people i know online lately. maybe they actually have lives and are busy doing something, ha. well, bye

hendrix190 @ 2004-07-08T12:30:00

2004-07-08T18:39:02Z

well i have one week of summer school left then i think im off for like a month, i dunno what im gonna do. now im bored and eating watermelon, its good thing to eat cause its mainly water, so its not gonna make me fat. im thinkin bout geting some alcohol, and getting sloppy drunk, thats always a good idea when ur bored. i like to think that alcohol is good for me cause it pulls the water out of my body, which make me wiegh less, so thats my excuse for drinking, even though it sounds like bullshit. yea well u know, bye

hendrix190 @ 2004-07-06T19:43:00

2004-07-07T00:51:24Z

i finally got my computer fixed, so i can get online again, but it really doesnt matter cause im so busy, with school and stuff, i never really get the chance to get on here. i went to the new orleans zoo yesterday, it was kinda fun, but it must of been like a hundred degrees, i took some pics of the animals and whatnot. the flamingos really stink. today i finally worked out after like a month of not working out, and guess what, im ridicoulous weak , as expected, i bench pressed 185 like 3 times. i guess ill have to build my strenght up again. im thinking about working with my friends dad after i get out of school, its like really hard work, so hopeing i can get back into shape. my skin feels like its burning cause i just now took my meds after a month of not taking them. so i feel like a huge "winner". the end.

hotel room

2004-05-30T15:17:56Z

last night and the night before me and my friend rented a hotel room, we pretty much got drunk and trashed the place, hopefully not too bad though, cause the room is in my name. i went to home depot and got stuff to make a funnel with. and i made a funnel with like a 8 foot piece of clear tubing, u could fit like 10 beers in it, haha, im like sooo tired right now. bye

hendrix190 @ 2004-05-16T12:53:00

2004-05-16T17:57:35Z

i went to see troy last night, it was pretty good. today i have to work out and thats bout it, my dad bought a new boat, so tommorow we are gonna go to the river and break in the motor, and maybe fish alittle.

hendrix190 @ 2004-05-10T14:49:00

2004-05-10T20:00:04Z

i just got home from academy, i bought was whey protien, its was really cheap too, i was paying 30 bucks for 3 pounds at GNC, now im payin 30 bucks for 5 pounds. yesterday i bought a digital camera, and im so excited that im taking pictures of everything and everyone. the thing cost like 130 dollars, apparently u can buy memory cards for it and u will have more memory , so i went to wal-mart to look at them, and the cheapest one was like 30 dollars, and they had one for 100 dollars, screw that, ill just have to deal with not as much memory.

hendrix190 @ 2004-05-04T15:34:00

2004-05-04T20:38:26Z

today i woke up early and went to the store, and bought a new wieght bench, it was 100 bucks, and its built really strong, it took like 2 hours to put together, the good thing about this bench is u can do squats also. i just got done workin out today, and my left shoulder feels kinda bad. i guess ill get over it.

hendrix190 @ 2004-05-02T17:44:00

2004-05-02T22:49:54Z

I just got finish working out, im am completely wore out. I'm still patheticly weak. I'm fairly sure its because i dont eat enough and dont work out enough anymore. I used to work out same body parts 3 times a week, now im doin more like 2 times a week, and i used to eat so much food, but i barely eat anything anymore. any ways i hope to go fishing tommorow. i have a pump right now, my muslce look sooo huge , its awesome, i wish they would stay this size, but the pump normally only last like 30 mins at the must, then im back down to normal. bye bye

hendrix190 @ 2004-04-26T14:26:00

2004-04-26T19:29:15Z

today im gettin ready to go fishin in golden meadow, jarrod is supposed to bring my reels to me today and i guess ill clean them and string them. i bought some new baits also, im suppose to work out today, i def do not feel like doing it, its gettin old, but i have to do it, so i prob will.

hendrix190 @ 2004-04-21T20:07:00

2004-04-22T01:19:26Z

i work out again today, but i was soo sore from the last work out that i only did 2 sets of bench press and 2 sets of curls. i also took my meds for the first time in like 2 weeks, and i feel all wierd and stuff, like my skin is burning.

hendrix190 @ 2004-04-19T22:28:00

2004-04-20T03:34:46Z

i finally worked out again today after like 2 weeks off, im extremely weak, i only did 200 like 5 times on bench press, i hope my strength comes back. I also went fishing and caught a few bass. im talkin to some loser right now..... i need my fishin reels back from jarrod that poindexter. i need a gf.

love

2004-04-13T02:04:42Z

"And now these three remain : faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love". love is what we all strive for in our lives. Isnt it a great tradgity to see what people put themselves through to acquire acceptance and love. from being an alcoholic to a rapist to a perfectionist to just a child tryin to fit in with a certain group. for example my friend byron will get completely drunk and threaten to drive his truck, just so he can get people to say they love him and they dont want him to drive drunk. He thrives on stuff like that, is there not a better way to go about recieveing love? even at this level love can be untrue, what we really want is unconditional love. True unconditional love comes from God, so y are people striving for this conditional acceptance from peers?

hendrix190 @ 2004-03-31T21:38:00

2004-04-01T03:39:23Z

we arent not meant to be perfect, i dont wanna preach to u, im sure u heard it before, but i mind as well say it. we are born not perfect , but through Christ we are made perfect. i look at these kids that are like very outgoing christians. they are unattractive, and they are not self consious at all, they are not insecure about their bodies, or their looks. and i ask myself, how can a person be this way, its like they are completely oblivious to their image, and the way people see them, yet they are happy, and what u seek is happiness and contentment, wether it be from ur looks or otherwise. these christian kids are so wrapped up in Christ they dont care about or worry about anything else. they are truely happy. maybe some day u will find perfect happiness, but i think it will be through Christ in some kinda way.

^ this is a comment i left for one of my friends. but i thought maybe yall should read this, its interesting, kinda.

some bitch tryin to fuck me

2004-03-28T08:49:30Z

me, byron, erf, dustin ,fred and some females, are all drunk, and this one girl is pullin me into the bathroom at my moms house when they are FN sleeping and shes tryin to fuck me, and i was like hell no i aint fuckin u in my mommas bathroom. so she finally let me out of the bathroom, and now she went somewheres , and i think shes coming back, she bought me alcohol, and shes expecting somethin in return.......haha. o well we will have to see how it goes i guess, but i dont want no fuckin baby right now, so um i dunno. she prob wants me to get her preg so she can fuck over my life, that shit aint gonna happen.

hendrix190 @ 2004-03-25T09:06:00

2004-03-25T15:10:59Z

today, i have to go running, which i really hate doing, then i have to come home and get my fishing stuff ready, cause me and my dad are goin fishin friday, then me and byron are goin fishin saturday.

i cant work out!!!!!!!1

2004-03-21T22:41:45Z

i just got back from fishin with byron, at the amite river, and we didnt catch anything as expected, i wanna work out now, but my weight lifting partner is gone, so i guess ill have to wait, i tried talkin to chrissie just now and she wont talk, so i said fuck her, and deleted her off my list. i havent taking my meds today and i feel all wierd and shit. sometimes i think the bible was writtin by people long ago, to civilize the rest of the world. i mean the bible tells u how to live the right way and all. i know thinking this kinda stuff is a sin, but i cant control my thoughts. im red from being in the sun so long. and the scars on my arms are becoming very obvious now. people are starting to ask me how they got there and stuff. i dont wanna tell them the truth, so im like i dunno. i have to spray some weeds with weed killer tommorow, that should be pretty lame.

song i wrote when i was fucked up

2004-03-19T03:28:21Z

Your tainted touch bleeds my skin
lament feelings ive hidden within
this diesiese that dwells in my head
blurs my vision of real and dream
haunting me, taunting me, wont let me be, it wont leave me
invoking me into evil thoughts
numbing every thing ive known to be right

I pray, God please tell me if this is sin
the gun is cocked ,and i pray again
I cant make it stop, is this the only way
God save me, make it a better day

these wounds have surfaced to my skin
exposing the pain that lies within
so the whole world can see
how im losing my sanity
spiralling down to the depths of hell
my body falls as i scream and yell,
satan pulling at my mind
blasphmy pushing in this time
i must pay for these sins
throw me to hell and let the torment begin

hendrix190 @ 2004-03-18T18:48:00

2004-03-19T00:58:50Z

im feeling really sick for some reason i dunno y, i worked out today and got a much needed hair cut, so basically im big pimpin now, jk. my sisters little friends are over here, and they are all starin at me, they could atleast try to make it alittle less obvious. i hate eating but i have to , cause im building muscle, it takes me so long to eat cause i dont wanna do it. it takes like an hour to eat a piece of chicken. i wish i could eat junk food like i used to, instead of all this nasty protien. if i could just have a bowl of icecream or a peice of apple pie, or a few smironoff ices, just thinkin about it makes me crave it even that much more. i have 3 smirfs in the frig, but im not supposed to drink on this medcation im on, even though i have. the only thing stopping me from gettin hammered is im afriad my workout wont be as strong if i do drink. thats pretty bad when thats the only reason for me not to drink. im bout to start going to these AA and NA meetings. next week im supposed to go meet some girl with aaron, and shes like 16...... o well thats aaron for u. that should be interesting.

fight

2004-03-17T02:16:44Z

my phyciatrist thinks i need to AA and NA meetings , so i might do it, hopefully ill meet new people. i had a pretty strong work out today. and i went to the bank and got some stuff straight. tommorow ill probably go running and hopefully get a haircut. the other night i almost got in a big ass fight with like 3 guys the other night when i got drunk, they was all muggin me, so i went up to them and i was like "i dont wanna have to start swingin on yall, ya need to quit eyein me like im some punk" and they was all like "nah bruh we dont know whats going on our friend calls us over here to back him up in a fight with someone else". i was like o ight then and i left.

hendrix190 @ 2004-03-15T21:16:00

2004-03-16T03:25:13Z

tommorow i got go see the phyciatrist, and talk to her for a while. then im gonna come home and eat and go to erfs house to work out. im hopeing to be able to do 225 like 4 times or so on bench press. and curl like 65 pound dumbbell like 5 times or so. i hope i have some fun dreams tonight.